waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....='(...hurm..yesterday buka pose ngn dia kn..we talked about a lot of things la..but the most yg menusuk kalbu is wen dia started talking bout his frens nye opinion n thoughts la kn..they said to him..choose wisely..pikir dlm2 regarding bout his rship wit me..drg leh ckp im still young n takot t jd bende yg sme ..n xnk my bf ni kecewa berbgi..so they tot dat im 21 n i xleh nk hav the same tots cm drg..as if im not dat mature enuff..but drg xleh bce ape aku pikir n they cannot c dat my heart pumping laju mne kt dlm ni..so they cannot juz simply giving thoughts cmtu...if only they knew i ni mcne..even im 21 pon my thoughts doesnt seems to agree wit my age la kn...drg silap la..im not like his ex ..nutin like her at all...! for those yg btol2 bond to a rship sje yg layak comment..bcoz spe yg x tu..they wouldnt know..hurmmmm...sedihhh....tau x...then bile dia dh cte mctu...i started having this feeling n thoughts yg i ni xsesuai ngn dia...n dat i shud back off...='(...perhaps ape yg member2 dia ckp tu btol...im not mature enuff for him.....=(..but drg cm xde trust plak kt aku ni kn..if only i could read HIS mind rite now.....at least rse la lega ckit...drpd diam mcni..then sumhow sebenarnye dia xhappy pon....maybe i shud juz ask him frankly...kn...hmm.....lg satu smlm dia pon ade cte psl this guy his ofis mate jgk gak la kn ckp kt dia suh find a gurl yg ade carrier btol2..cm successful jgk la COMPARED TO ME ..mmg xsuccessful pon...i sedar diri ok..!!!..dia leh lak ckp kt my bf tu suh cri pempoan yg berkerjaya jgn cir yg keje xtentu cm under contract employees a.k.a cm i! terase ok..but i juz diam jela bile dia cte...although i know dia xmaksud pape pon nk bg i terase..dia xprasan...tp bengang jgk la ngn mamat ofis mate dia tu....it snot all about money tau x...it sabout feelings...u ade duit berjuta pon dlm bank u tu...doesnt promise u happiness jgk wats da point??? i seek for happiness..money bole cri bak kata my mum la kn..which is true la kn...but happiness nk cri celah mne?? sum ppl sennag je ckp bcoz drg xtau ape erti happiness act...nk cir org kaya la...berduit laa..hensem la hot la...tp xtau yg all of dat thing is juz a mask to cover up hati u yg busuk tu...xske la org yg memilih ni...criuz sumpah xske...juz bcoz org cm i unfortunate to gain ksenangan hidup doesnt mean i dont deserve a little bit of happiness in my life...kn...if sume org memilih nk yg kaye je n ber kerjaye....cmne plak? hati tu penting bkn duit semata2...blaja la tinggi 44 tingkat pon n kaye la cmne pon...if u xde budi xde adab ..xde spe pandg...ha bile dh kuar statement mctu lg la aku rse cm down to earth gile..bcoz aku bru nk idup nru keje..mne ade ape pon..kn..dh la aku ni org ssh...kadang mkn pon xcukup...but i dont mind...xminx sedekah kt org pon xkcu periuk nsi org pon...i can still survive to isi perut my family...even if im on my own pon...
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