put all the weight on me. . .

Aritu b4 masuk mesiniaga like a week b4 ...i suffered from a terrible depression yg sgt2 teruk ..depress tahap rse nk committ suicide..time tu klu duduk sorang2 mesti nanges..meleleh2...mcm kne rogol punye upset..padahal xde pape pon..depress smpi tahap toreh2 tgn..pecahkn brg..cermin..mengamuk..pastu ckp dgn my parents pon tengking2 asyik nk mara je..perasaan mara tu membuak2.. smpi kne gi jmpe doctor haaaa bru dpt pill anti depression ..bru ok ckit...then dh msk keje ha ok la plak...

but it doesnt ends there...rse stress keje lg teruk dri stress time stdy dulu..mmg klu bole nk turn back time mmg aku amek la dat chance..tau ape sbb stress gile? bkn sbb keje ke ape...the peers n environment ok je..sume ok..cume yg pressure nk mati is..u know dat u hav started working n u earn money..n dat money u hav to use not 4 urself but to support ur family...fhm x? nk pendek kn cte sume bende nk harapkn aku laa...which aku rse cm unfair laa..i diploma holder je..bru grad plak tu ..gaji ciput je..lane la gaji aku rm7 8 ribu..tu different story..

Dh tu my dad plak xkeje..i understand dia dh tua .he is 61 this year..but if only he knew how much i suffered skrg ni..then dia akn hav a thought to help me as well..i cant do this alone..aku ade like dua beradik je aku sulung adik pon hd kawin..of coz dia lebih kepada his own family thw wife n kids..abis spe nk jge parents aku..?? aku la kn obviously..ni bkn mslh berkira...ni mslh where is ur responsibility n ur concern as a daughter n a son to ur parents..and wat is ur priority?? of coz la i akn ckp my family..mmg nmpk aku cm happy gileee senyum jee..dlm hati ni remuk xtau..knowing dat at my age now...i hav alot of commitments...padahal org2 yg umur cm aku ni dok sibuk having fun kt luar...lepak shopping sne cni..duit mak bpk bg...aku mne adeeeee..sume aku buat sndiri...aku nk beli brg2 aku..bju aku..handbag bru ke ape nk mkn sedap2..mahal2..sume aku kne earn money sndiri..xleh minx kt parents aku..sbb drg mmg xde duit pon...

aku plak jenis xske minx duit kt parents knowing yg drg pon ssh..aku kne phm..tp ade la limit dia...aku bru je keje..hutang je sokmo...tiap2 bulan gaji aku ni mesti ade nk byr hutang la ape laa..aku tiap2 bulan bg bpk aku duit...